A Secret You Should Know --> Cindy

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The silver she-cat turned and kicked in her nest, her mind realing as she slept with a nightmare. Her ears layed flat against her cranium and her breathing became worse than before. She felt like she couldn't breathe. As though some heavy burden was weighing on her chest, suffocating her. She jolted awake, gasping with deep breathes. Gulping slightly, she knew what she had to do but it would never be and easy one. She curled a silver and black stipped tail over the dark brown kit who had high tailed it out of the nursery because of all the kits who teased her, even while she slept. She was surprised that she had never woken her kind yet evil looking daughter up. Licking Hawk-kit gently between the ears, she silently and smoothly rose from her nest, and stepped out of it before giving one last glance to the she-kit that every one thought had a very close relationship to her, as though they were sisters.


She was afraid that they would eventually find out that she was in fact the three new kits mother that were adopted not to long ago by the ever so gratefull Dreamcloud. It scared the medicine cat apprentice for a minute, the fate that her daughter would have to suffer, what her future would be like. To be feared by all, disowning her for her looks and not her personality. She wondered if she would ever have a mate who frankly didn't care but who knew. This was StarClan's curse for her having the kits in the first place. Her daughter would have one od the most horrible life that a cat would never wish for. The only one who actually liked her, surprisingly, was Midnightstar, ThunderClan's wonderfull new leader. The two, she guessed, had grown such a close bond and most likely he would end up as her mentor one day, with them being close and all. She saw it ever time they were together and how he was so kind and gentle with her, almost protective.


The kit stirred sunddenly, and Willowmoon jumped, almost wondering if Hawk-kit would have noticed the change in her surrondings. But the kit stayed asleep and was soon back to the small whistling as she breathed in and out from her nose. She smiled, glad that the she-kit had not died instead of being hated and turned back to her destination. Cinderheart's half of the den in the far back of the medicine cats den. She was nervouse about this but knew that she would have to tell some one sometime or another, even if the cat was destined to be her mentor. Her limbs started to shake and she almost chikened out, but she kept going, not even letting fear stop her. Pushing her silver body through the crack in the cave that led to another cave, Willowmoon, not wanting to wake Cinderheart, rested her muzzle to her mentors ear.


She opened her jaw and spoke. "Cinderheart. I have to tell you something. Are you awake?" She meowed softly and gently, like she would to Hawk-kit, Smokekit, or Minnowkit. Her three beautiful kits, no matter how different that they were from the other ones. She stepped back a couple paces and waited for her mentor to awake, sitting down and curling her tail over her silver paws, green eyes darkened by the shadows of the den. She was distressed, from her secret that she could barely no longer keep, from the loss of a Leader, and soon the loss of her mentor. Yes, she knew. She knew from the first time that Cinderheart had found out, and when she saw the sadness in her eyes when given her two beloved apprentices their names, not to mention the time she nearly slipped it out. She had ignored it than and wondered how Embersight would have reacted instead. But she did the same, and said nothing about it. Wether she knew or not, it didn't matter. She had to get this off her chest and forget about the past. Everyone dies, no one really lives forever. It was just an old Elders tale right there, But she was not so sure about it.

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puppet --> willowmoon
made for --> cindy
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[//Cindy// l u n a]

OOC: Are we going to do this here and now?

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[ If you want. I want the Clan to find out at the meeting, since Minnowkit said who his real parents are out loud infront of Midnightstar and Dewstar. ]

[//Cindy// l u n a]

ooc; then we should do it here because Cinderheart will not be... present... alive... for the meeting.

Cinderheart blinked open one eye, looking at her apprentice with grumpy affection. She didn't really mind being woken up, but only because she was used to it. She had been treating sick cats for a very long time. "This had better be..." but then she trailed off because of how obviously distressed her apprentice was. Cinderheart had picked up many useful skills throughout her years, and reading cats' emotions was one of them. She could tell when a cat was in pain; it took an expert to hide that from the caring medicine cat. The thought led her off onto a bit of a tangent - thinking about the strange ShadowClan apprentice, Lilypaw, and how she always seemed to have an ache. Maybe her stomach hurts her a lot, Cinderheart mused for a split second before her mind woke up and focused. "What is it, Wilowmoon?"

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Willowmoon flicked her tail nervously and she stared down at her paws. There was no easy way to get out of this, let alone say it. How easy was it to tell your mentor that you had kits when you were never suppose to. She lifted her head slightly, then it fell back down. Claws digging into the ground, she searched for the right words to say. "Um .... Eh ...." She meowed, heart pounding against her chest. What if she made her stop being a Medicine Cat over one stupid rule that had not affected her in anyway. The kits were fine and they were living happily and Dreamcloud had been happy to take them in as her own. "I think that I have to tell you something really important about Hawk-kit, Minnowkit, and Smokekit." She meowed, and bit her lip, trying to get the rest of her words out. "I .... I gave birth to them, not Dreamcloud. Their mine and Emeraldblaze's." She meowed, the words slipping out like silk. She had said it easier than what she thought she would have and she looked in her mentors eyes. "Is there anyway that you can possibly forgive me?" She asked, hopping to find some sort of forgiveness.



Hawk-kit, drowsy and tired, looked around at the now empty nest, noticing that her mother was gone. Getting up and smelling out her mother's scent, the tabby she-cat could here voices in the far back den. That was were Cinderheart slept. "Willowmoon?" She gently whispered, but knew that no one would be able to here her. She decided to listen to the rest of the conversation, making sure she would not get caught.

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Cinderheart closed her eyes to think. She wanted to know how to react - and she couldn't trust her first instinct. She didn't want to let her apprentice completely get away with this mangling of StarClan's rules, and you she also couldn't possibly be too harsh on the young, careless cat. How could she possibly impress upon Willowmoon the weight of this without forever ruining the new medicine cat's life? When she opened her eyes once more, their faded gray had a stern glare in them, but there was something soft about it - like she didn't want to be mad. "Willowmoon, I will always forgive you. But in this case it is not my opinion that matters. I will back you up - but you must speak to your ancestors. We will travel together it two nights to the Moonstone. StarClan will decide what consequences your actions will have. This can't be taken lightly." Her words were harsh but her tone was calm - she had long out grown overreacting and outbursts of fury.

ooc; perhaps they never get around to going so Willowmoon has to go by herself and then Cinderheart speaks to her from StarClan? That would be cool...

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[ Oh! Lets do that please! That would be interesting! ]



Dipping her head to her mentor respectfully, she could understand what her mentor was trying to say. It was starclan after all that had pushed her into doing the right thing. By telling Cinderheart what she had done, and how she knew that it was wrong. "I understand." She meowed and turned away to go back to sleep.


Hawk-kit, noticing her mother coming back, ran for the nest and pretended to be asleep. Lucky her, it worked and when Willowmoon came back to lay down, she noticed that the she-cat had fallen asleep right away. Soon, her icey blue eyes closed and Hawk-kit fell asleep as well.

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Cinderheart curled up once more, but wasn't sure if she would be able to sleep. She looked over at her stores of herbs. We're low on so many things, she thought. And leaf-fall was coming. She would gather some of the herbs tomorrow, on her own. She needed time to think by herself. Perhaps it was good reason that she had named both of her apprentices as full medicine cats. They would need each other. Will StarClan banish Willowmoon from her position as medicine cat? Surely they know what a wonderful medicine cat she will make. But Cinderheart's head was racked with doubts. She knew that soon she would join the ranks of the stars herself, walk among the shimmering lights in the sky. Would she look down on the forests and understand more about the workings of things? Would Willowmoon turn warrior in her eyes, unable to continue medicine cat duties? Cinderheart groomed herself, drawing her rough tongue over the fur on her shoulder. It was calming, and she soon was able to let go of her worries and fall into a dreamless sleep - she did not know that the pleasant slumber would be the last in her mortal life.

ooc; Hey dreamy, what skin are you using? Because I had to copy&paste to read your post. That color certainly doesn't work with the main skin right now. Or are you still on the black one?

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Um ... I'm really not sure, but its not the black one. The background is green black and blue and the logo is a white and tabby cat laying down with its eyes closed.

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