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[» // Mysti . |]

Through the silence of the forest, the tranquil beauty of time and space, there trekked a feline of extraordianary origins, of terrible passings. Identified as a she-cat, the creature kept to the shadows that the dense canopies above provided from the protection of the unbearable heat rays of the sun. However, some beams of the sparkling, golden light managed to penetrate the emerald leaves and interlaced, thick branches and shone brilliantly in the forest of many hues.

One ray in particular touched the pelt of the she-cat, as she passed along at a melancholy, silent pace. Her pelt flared brilliantly in the light, showing the many hues of crimson and gold fur, the aura of shifting flame. Muscles of a young but experienced Warrior rippled strongly as she moved along, making the fur flutter in their wake, appearing to an observer an ever moving flame. Tan splotches dotted her body in the shape of leaves, and black stripes slashed her pelt hither and thither.

Suddenly, she came to a hault as fluttering sounded above. Raising her head, she caught the glimpse of a finch landing on its nest. Ears flicked towards the bird as she intently listened. Little chirping noises resonated throughout the entire clearing. Smiling slightly, she pressed on, leaving the mother bird to care for her offspring.

Walking to a graceful, light and rhythmic pace, the beautiful she-cat happened upon the Great Sycamore. Staring at the great monstrosity, no wonder many cats dared not approach it, save for the ThuderClan Medicine Cat and her apprentice searching for herbs. The flame hued feline observed it for some time, but with quick acceleration, she leapt up and began to scramble upwards. Though, she was quite out of practice for climbing, she reached one of the higher branches with ease, her slendor body agile enough to cover the distance without any difficulties.

Reclining on the thick branch, she peered down and saw the great distance between herself and the forest floor below. Without fear but with great relish, the she-cat felt comfortable in this elevated location, as high as it was. Sighing with satisfaction and contentment, she stretched her muscular, slendor body down and gazed out over the horizon.

The golden orb of flame and life began to descend the sky, almost touching the dip where it tucks itself under during the reign of the moon and the night. Admiring the beauty of the twilight, the surroundings glowing with emerald, gold, and life, the she-cat could not help but fixate her gaze toward the horizon. Intense, amber-green eyes rested on their spot, deep with emotion and many thoughts that swarmed her mind; they glistened brilliantly in the evening light, glowing like peridots. Secrets and veiled emotions were kept hidden beneathe their depths, the growing isolation between herself and the rest of the world shining more clearly like a horrendous blaze destroying the forest.

Deep within, she felt different. Several months ago, even during the days of her apprenticeship to Desertstar, the ThunderClan Leader, she did not have a problem making friends and forgetting her past. However, now in the present, as she was very much the grown and adult feline, the images of her terrible kithood flooded her dreams every night, keeping her from the much needed sleep that she so lacked. The nightmares kept coming back, hindering her from necessary slumber for the next day.

And the more she had them, the more she felt alone.
And the more she felt alone, the more she felt like she was being shunned.
And the more she felt like she was being shunned, the more she felt different.
And the more she felt different, the more aware she was about not being clan-born, of being part of another land, another world.

She did not belong here, but what were the warnings the dying cats were trying to tell in their guarded riddles? What were their words before they were brutally murdered by the invading cats?

As always, she would wake from each nightmare, come out of the Warriors' Den, and ask her ancestors above. And as always, they were as silent as stars...

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Prison gates won't open up for me
On these hands and knees I'm crawlin'
Oh, I reach for you
Well I'm terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can't hold my soul in
All I need is you

Her pelt was far from the sleek shine it had once been. Spots of the color of bark from the low color of dirt could barely be distinguished from one another. When had she last cared for herself? Last spoken? She no longer cared. The pain of loss had molded her heart into nothing, but a rock as she mourned. Night after waking night had she left her camp like she did in the mornings and day. There were so many familiar faces, but none that matched the extordinary one of her beloved's. None of them did she take comfort in, none of them did she care for. All other's problems seemed so belittled to her. Who could know what pain she went through?

Come please I'm callin'
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

Swift steps slowed to a steady, but devistatingly slow walk as her head hung low. Her amber eyes could not be seen through her closed eyelids, but one crystal tear managed to find its way to the light and fall to the floor below. Her body shook painfully as she gave out a long-deprived sob. The young she-cat fought desperately to keep it all back, to try and be strong. The point seemed useless as tear after tear fell on her barely-moving paws. She continued on with no point to her voyage. Anything to be away from the ones she needed most. Lunarpelt, Birchclaw, Amberleaf... Her friends, right?

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be

No! None came close to him. None could replace him, only he would she let in her heart, now he was gone and true to her oath she remained. To live her life in misery or to forget him and move on was the question she had been faced with so many a time. Misery. A life of misery. She would give a thousand lifetimes of bittersweet misery to cling onto the memories they had. They may have forgotten him so easily, but it wouldn't happen with her. She would cling onto him with her last dying breath as an elder in ThunderClan.

Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

The darkness in her eyes was replaced with an image of her old self, strong and lithe, standing proud with the sun reflecting off her pelt. She could almost imagine she stood the same now. Almost. But there was only a limit to imagination. A sigh the heavens would once sing to was now tired and old as the she-cat opened her strong amber eyes and looked at the base of the tree she stood at. She gave something close to a smile and put a paw on it, looking up and sniffing the air curiously. Her voice gave out a hoarse questioning call. "Amberleaf?"

Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm fallin'
And all I see is you

Her long claws, seemingly quite unused slipped out of their sheaths and dug into the tree. She began to lug her light body up the great tree, her muscles quivering with effort. When she reached the nearest branch that seemed capable of holding her she settled down on it, taking in deep breaths. Her amber eyes searched the branches, seeing the figure of the she-cat a little ways above. Her eyes clouded slightly. The distance seemed so far... She dug her claws into the bark again, taking more than a few leaps to reach the same branch as the amber warrior. Her eyes went to her paws as she sat down, not knowing why she had bothered to come. "Amberleaf.."

Hurry I'm fallin'

All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh, I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'
Hurry I'm fallin'

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[» // Mysti . |]

I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no no
I needed You today
So where did You go?
You told me to call
Said You'd be there
And though I haven't seen You
Are You still there?

From the delerious thoughts of her long forgotten past and the overwhelming onslaught of emotions, there came the sound of another within the vicinity. Awakened into the now with the sound of claws scraping against bark, the flame hued she-cat thrust upwards upon an upright position, still reclining upon her haunches, but alert of the noise behind. Then, suddenly as she turned towards her name being beckoned, not once but twice, her amber-green eyes, glowing from the sunshine, went wide with shock and yet uncontrollable joy.

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

There was no need to look at the individual before her to recognize the she-cat apprentice. Just the mere scent, the almost inaudible whisper of her voice, the sound of her pawsteps approaching, or the sensation of her presence near was all that the beautiful feline needed to know one of her best friends. She could have identified Leopardpaw without any difficulties from a distance if it were not for her mind wandering off and distancing itself her body to the lands beyond the horizon.

And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life

Pushing her thoughts, dreams...nightmares...and emotions aside, the ThunderClan Warrior almost squeaked like a kitten with overpowering joy, seeing another friend in a long time. But her outburst of great salutations stopped as she observed her friend before her. From joy to worry crept over ever changing facial features, just as quickly as her shifting pelt, an immortal flame. Just seeing Leopardpaw in this state caused immediate alarm as she tried to find the words to respond.

We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

Somewhere, deep down, a voice cried out to her saying something in a muffled, pitiful voice that contained fear, pain, and anguish. The voice kept trying to reach her, but somehow, Amberleaf could not grasp it. Whatever her concious spirit tried to interperate, the message transmitted could not be correctally heard. Something was wrong, even without the voice calling, the she-cat wondered...

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

Fearful, the flame and golden hued she-cat stepped forwards, one paw ahead, and with careful approach, she mewwed quietly, "Leopardpaw?..." The words she tried to express were getting choked up, caught in her throat like a lone Warrior feels when caught by another Clan's war party. Her heart pounded in her chest, and the ever faster beat drummed within her ears, making her lose hearing of her surrounding with full reception.

We cannot separate
You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

The same voice began to cry. The very heartbreaking cry that creates the ripple effect of others following. Then, the crying began to fade away, its distance from this place and her growing and widening with every heartbeat. It soon diminished, as if wandering off to the same place where Amberleaf's thoughts flocked to before.

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

Then, suddenly, it dawned on her. Somehow, through the silence of it all, the lack of communication, Amberleaf had connected to the part of the soul where none had done before. She managed to feel the pain of her friend within herself with the spirit's every emotions, however overwhelming they were. "Leopardpaw...what's wrong?" she asked. Yet, there was no need for a reply...she did not have to hear the answer...she knew...

...never alone

[|g.O.l.d.Y|]

I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

Her eyes turned from joyous to worry so easily it made the golden she-cat apprentice cringe. Once again she found herself lost for words. How many times had it happened when her friends tried to talk to her she wondered? It almost seemed easier to just sit in silence like a rabbit when it heard the very step of the hunter's paws. She could almost feel the fear of the prey, she could feel eyes boaring into her again. It was two eyes, but somehow it felt like a thousand and more. Just look away... She begged inwardly, but the magnifiscent turquoise heeded no knowledge to her silent prayer.

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

It was time to talk. Her lips turned into something close to her old prideful smile as she slowly shook her head. Head was lifted from its hung state and for a moment the old flame flickered in the eyes of fire then hardened over cold, the fire hidden once again. Her response was wavery, her voice slightly cracked to show she had not recently used it. She started to reply, eyes flickering with tears for a moment before she swallowd them back. It took every ounce of power to say the cold words to her ally...friend... "I think you know, Amberl-leaf."

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Her eyes looked down the tree, making her dig her claws into the branch and lay down cautiously. She looked back up at the feline before her, swallowing back a lump again. Her eyes closed and she looked down again, sighing heavily as she awaited a harsh response. Or kind. Anything. She didn't deserve it, she knew she didn't, but the burning desire to here a loved one's long forgotten voice could not be put out so easily.

Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back

"How have you been? I haven't talked to you for..awhile." The attention needed to be off her, even if it was one cat. She didn't want to hear about herself, she wanted to hear about others. Maybe friends were needed. She couldn't deny she wanted company on the lone path she walked. How hard could it be to let one cat in? A change from her routine life...

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same

"I have missed you guys..."

I miss you...

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