Post by rex. on Jan 10, 2006 18:45:24 GMT -5
"Excuse me but does anyone have a cell phone?" asks a girl as she pokes her head through the door to the practice room where me and Tanner our practicing our Solo Ensemble piece
"i will in a month!" i say brightly
"oh" she says smiling "well i need to see what time it is..."
"Ive got a watch!! i got one just to day from Sarah!" i roll back the cuff of my sleeve and my eyes widen as i see that the time reads "3:57" i say out loud "I have to go! my mom will be here in like 5 minutes!" i quickly apologize to Tanner and to Rebecca who wanted to practice with me also, as i pack up my trumpet and stow it back in my locker. i heaved my back pack up on my shoulders and turn on my iPod and walk swiftly to the pool doors where my sister Haley and Alice would be waiting for my mom to pick them up.
As i walk down the hall i see their bodies sitting against the wall and there is another person there in front of them. "who is that?" i call
the person responds and i realize i cant hear them. i turn off my iPod and look up. "oh" its Christ. i don't really like that kid anymore. back when i was a freshman, i had a fleeting crush on him, but when he started throwing me insults, i turned my back on him and decided i wouldn't bother with him anymore. he looked up and smiled as if nothing happened and he no longer hated me. but i still did. Alice was hugging his legs and after a while they left to go to the vending machines. i followed soon after with a request from Haley to bring her some Snyder's Pretzels. when i returned, Haley scoffed and said "thats not what i wanted!"
"yes it is! you said Snyder's Pretzels! these are Snyder's Pretzels!" i say
Alice comes back wearing Chris's hat and looking pleased. i hand her the bag of pretzels and say "so do you or Christ have a crush on eacho-"
"NO!" both Haley and Alice reply glaring at me. "people ask me that everyday!" whines Alice "we are just friend!"
"yeah" agrees Haley "Its like me and Bryce, except without the liking each other part..."
I look up and see my mom pulling up to the school and we head out while Alice scampers off down the Halls. i let Haley sit in the front seat, because i felt like being nice, and after a minute or so, Alice returns, still Wearing the hat. she closes the door and takes a seat. as we drive off Alice mentions "I couldn't give his hat back. Couldn't find him."
"Luke?" asks my mom. she is used to hearing about all the boys on the swim team that my sisters swim with every day and she though she might have been talking about him.
"NO! this is Chris's hat! I would never take Luke's hat!" she responds angrily
"why wouldn't you?" i ask, cause I'm curious
"because" she says rounding on me "i hate Luke and he smells like smoke!"
-right now I have a feeling that Luke likes me but i wont tell her, nor Haley especially because of what she said next...-
"I remember how when i told Dave, our swim coach that i like Luke, and he was like 'what?! why not David Marsh?! hes a...fine...upstanding citizen' and i said 'but he's younger than me...and i don't like dating younger men really...'"
a short silence passes in which time, i am deciding whether of not to bring up my ex boyfriend Craig or not. maybe i just wanted a reason to be in the conversation. i don't know but i opened my mouth timidly and said "well...Craig was only 14 when he and I went out...((I am 15))"
"You and Craig never went out." said Alice abruptly
"what?! y-yes we did!" i stammered
"you actually went out on a date?"
i was about to mention the fact that i did go over to his house a few times, but before the words came, Haley turned around from the front seat and said snidely "well you were sitting on his lap in the middle of Band class, making out with him! so thats defiantly going o-"
"We Weren't Making Out!" i said, my voice was rising, but i could feel it trembling with embarrassment
"O-OH! yes you were, from what i heard from the people who saw you, you were"
"yeah and your face was all over his!" intervened Alice
"NO I WASN'T!" i said again. my mom wasn't saying any thing. She had already heard about it, from Alice a few months ago
"WHAT?!" my moms face appeared from around the side of her seat as we pulled up to the stop light
"NO I WASN'T!" i said. i wanted to slap Alice. i wanted to hurt her so bad for telling.
"YES YOU WERE! I SAW YOU! YOU WERE ALL OVER HIM!"
"I WASN'T MAKING OUT WITH HIM!!" I bellowed. it was true though. i wasn't. i was sick that day and so i mealy pecked him a bit. yes i was sitting on his lap, and we were hugging, but it wasn't bad! we were just enjoying each others company...just quietly, but obviously not invisibly...
"JEEZ!" said my mom, i was expecting her to tell me that she was disappointed in me, but i was shocked at what she said when she continued "stop yelling please! Barrie, we all make mistakes sometimes..." i lay against the back of my seat and glare out the window at the car nest to us. -thats a pretty color- i think "...but not many people like PDA very much..." without actually looking i could tell my mom had flashed Alice a glance. she had never had a boyfriend before. how could she ever understand? she was just jealous. i was sure of it.
"But it was the same day he asked her out!" she complained trying vainly to get my mom to see how wrong i was. the Car rolled forward again as the light changed and we proceeded on toward home
my mom sighed and said " Barrie, do you promise not to do it again"
i am still glaring out my window.i could say yes. its the only thing i can say. but it would be a lie, because sooner or later in my life, i know it will happen again. "yes..." I mumble swallowing a lump in my throat that is a usual sign of tears.
Our car turns a corner into a neighborhood we drive through to get home and i realize i cant keep this information inside me forever. with a weak and strained voice i said angrily "and thats probably the reason i avoided him!"
"what?" she my mom sounding surprised
"EVERYBODY! talking about that day, every time we were together i felt embarrassed, so i started to ignore him! and thats why we arn't together now!"
i inhale, lean back against my seat, and close my eyes, wiling them not to water up at my past regrets.
"did you tell him that?" asked my mom sounding concerned
"OH yeah!" says Haley waving her arms around "a year later, Hey I'm sorry! i stil love you" ...how dare she say that...what does she know?...I suddenly recall how i feel now whenever i see him; a sickly feeling in my stomach and all i can think about is how sorry i am that we came to what we did.
"well i did tell him i was sorry for not paying attention to him. i didn't tell him why though" i mumble
"thats okay, Little Bear" cooed my mom
i glare out my window like i usually do when I'm upset. i don't realize that my face shows perfectly well that i am both very angry and very sad.
"Oh Barrie...." says my mom. i glance up and she is looking at me through the rear view mirror, looking utterly concerned. Haley and Alice lean over to catch a glimpse of my expression to see what s wrong. they should already know why. i turn my face back to the window before they can see any thing to see the our mailbox, and next to it, the drive way.
All i wanted to do was to curl up in bed and mope about all the times my sisters have betrayed me and made me feel like nothing...
"i will in a month!" i say brightly
"oh" she says smiling "well i need to see what time it is..."
"Ive got a watch!! i got one just to day from Sarah!" i roll back the cuff of my sleeve and my eyes widen as i see that the time reads "3:57" i say out loud "I have to go! my mom will be here in like 5 minutes!" i quickly apologize to Tanner and to Rebecca who wanted to practice with me also, as i pack up my trumpet and stow it back in my locker. i heaved my back pack up on my shoulders and turn on my iPod and walk swiftly to the pool doors where my sister Haley and Alice would be waiting for my mom to pick them up.
As i walk down the hall i see their bodies sitting against the wall and there is another person there in front of them. "who is that?" i call
the person responds and i realize i cant hear them. i turn off my iPod and look up. "oh" its Christ. i don't really like that kid anymore. back when i was a freshman, i had a fleeting crush on him, but when he started throwing me insults, i turned my back on him and decided i wouldn't bother with him anymore. he looked up and smiled as if nothing happened and he no longer hated me. but i still did. Alice was hugging his legs and after a while they left to go to the vending machines. i followed soon after with a request from Haley to bring her some Snyder's Pretzels. when i returned, Haley scoffed and said "thats not what i wanted!"
"yes it is! you said Snyder's Pretzels! these are Snyder's Pretzels!" i say
Alice comes back wearing Chris's hat and looking pleased. i hand her the bag of pretzels and say "so do you or Christ have a crush on eacho-"
"NO!" both Haley and Alice reply glaring at me. "people ask me that everyday!" whines Alice "we are just friend!"
"yeah" agrees Haley "Its like me and Bryce, except without the liking each other part..."
I look up and see my mom pulling up to the school and we head out while Alice scampers off down the Halls. i let Haley sit in the front seat, because i felt like being nice, and after a minute or so, Alice returns, still Wearing the hat. she closes the door and takes a seat. as we drive off Alice mentions "I couldn't give his hat back. Couldn't find him."
"Luke?" asks my mom. she is used to hearing about all the boys on the swim team that my sisters swim with every day and she though she might have been talking about him.
"NO! this is Chris's hat! I would never take Luke's hat!" she responds angrily
"why wouldn't you?" i ask, cause I'm curious
"because" she says rounding on me "i hate Luke and he smells like smoke!"
-right now I have a feeling that Luke likes me but i wont tell her, nor Haley especially because of what she said next...-
"I remember how when i told Dave, our swim coach that i like Luke, and he was like 'what?! why not David Marsh?! hes a...fine...upstanding citizen' and i said 'but he's younger than me...and i don't like dating younger men really...'"
a short silence passes in which time, i am deciding whether of not to bring up my ex boyfriend Craig or not. maybe i just wanted a reason to be in the conversation. i don't know but i opened my mouth timidly and said "well...Craig was only 14 when he and I went out...((I am 15))"
"You and Craig never went out." said Alice abruptly
"what?! y-yes we did!" i stammered
"you actually went out on a date?"
i was about to mention the fact that i did go over to his house a few times, but before the words came, Haley turned around from the front seat and said snidely "well you were sitting on his lap in the middle of Band class, making out with him! so thats defiantly going o-"
"We Weren't Making Out!" i said, my voice was rising, but i could feel it trembling with embarrassment
"O-OH! yes you were, from what i heard from the people who saw you, you were"
"yeah and your face was all over his!" intervened Alice
"NO I WASN'T!" i said again. my mom wasn't saying any thing. She had already heard about it, from Alice a few months ago
"WHAT?!" my moms face appeared from around the side of her seat as we pulled up to the stop light
"NO I WASN'T!" i said. i wanted to slap Alice. i wanted to hurt her so bad for telling.
"YES YOU WERE! I SAW YOU! YOU WERE ALL OVER HIM!"
"I WASN'T MAKING OUT WITH HIM!!" I bellowed. it was true though. i wasn't. i was sick that day and so i mealy pecked him a bit. yes i was sitting on his lap, and we were hugging, but it wasn't bad! we were just enjoying each others company...just quietly, but obviously not invisibly...
"JEEZ!" said my mom, i was expecting her to tell me that she was disappointed in me, but i was shocked at what she said when she continued "stop yelling please! Barrie, we all make mistakes sometimes..." i lay against the back of my seat and glare out the window at the car nest to us. -thats a pretty color- i think "...but not many people like PDA very much..." without actually looking i could tell my mom had flashed Alice a glance. she had never had a boyfriend before. how could she ever understand? she was just jealous. i was sure of it.
"But it was the same day he asked her out!" she complained trying vainly to get my mom to see how wrong i was. the Car rolled forward again as the light changed and we proceeded on toward home
my mom sighed and said " Barrie, do you promise not to do it again"
i am still glaring out my window.i could say yes. its the only thing i can say. but it would be a lie, because sooner or later in my life, i know it will happen again. "yes..." I mumble swallowing a lump in my throat that is a usual sign of tears.
Our car turns a corner into a neighborhood we drive through to get home and i realize i cant keep this information inside me forever. with a weak and strained voice i said angrily "and thats probably the reason i avoided him!"
"what?" she my mom sounding surprised
"EVERYBODY! talking about that day, every time we were together i felt embarrassed, so i started to ignore him! and thats why we arn't together now!"
i inhale, lean back against my seat, and close my eyes, wiling them not to water up at my past regrets.
"did you tell him that?" asked my mom sounding concerned
"OH yeah!" says Haley waving her arms around "a year later, Hey I'm sorry! i stil love you" ...how dare she say that...what does she know?...I suddenly recall how i feel now whenever i see him; a sickly feeling in my stomach and all i can think about is how sorry i am that we came to what we did.
"well i did tell him i was sorry for not paying attention to him. i didn't tell him why though" i mumble
"thats okay, Little Bear" cooed my mom
i glare out my window like i usually do when I'm upset. i don't realize that my face shows perfectly well that i am both very angry and very sad.
"Oh Barrie...." says my mom. i glance up and she is looking at me through the rear view mirror, looking utterly concerned. Haley and Alice lean over to catch a glimpse of my expression to see what s wrong. they should already know why. i turn my face back to the window before they can see any thing to see the our mailbox, and next to it, the drive way.
All i wanted to do was to curl up in bed and mope about all the times my sisters have betrayed me and made me feel like nothing...
