Beryl is back

[Marly]

Last night my neighbor called, warning us that Beryl came back from the mental hospital. My parents have told me i can't go over there without one of them until they know if she's ok or not. Everyone of our neighbors are telling Sh!t about her....thier saying beryl killed Frank, which i know that's not possible. Anyways, now a few moments i got an email from her, i'm excited, but thne again i guess i have mixed feelings, she sounds the same, but i havn't seen her, or actually heard here....well, here's what she wrote(P.s. Evereone calls me beenie or beenier or beeniers....w/e)

Hi Beanie,

I miss you a lot. I got home a couple of days ago. I am sure you've heard things about me, but they ARE NOT TRUE IN ANY WAY!!! I did not do anything bad to Frank at all but loved him very much. Don't trust what you hear, but remember all that our friendship has been and remember how much I loved him. I just miss our friendship so much. I hate it so much that things are being said about me to make me into something that I'm not. I'm doing all right. My mind is clear and I don't have any mental problems or anything. Frank was already depressed, Beanie, he just didn't show it to other people. I've lost so much already, and this is very hard for me, so hope you will write back, and hope you will feel better about me if I can just tell the truth maybe some of the damage that's been done by some other people. I would like your parents and Jared to know what happened, too. If you would ever like me to come over, I can explain stuff to you. I love you all very much. Hope to hear from you sometime soon. Also, feel free to let Heidi and Zoe know that I'm fine, though having a terrible time sorting through all this that has happened. Let me know. Love you always,

Your friend,

Beryl


So, what do you guys think? I'm a little scared....and yet still excited, i wanna go see her...but like hell i'm going to say anything with any of my parents there!....yeah

[Marly]

and i'm not sure how t reply....i've got some of it down...

[icefang]

If your parents say don't visit her, then don't. But write back, let her know that the only reason you can't come to see her is because of your parents... be kind too.

[|g.O.l.d.Y|]

Wow...Your heart must be pounding. I wouldn't go over if your parents say no. Sometimes they do know best. I wouldn't tell your parents she emailed you...they might freak. But I would reply and explain everything nicely.

~:Goldy:~

[Marly]

No, my parents said i couldn't visit her unless somebody was with me....and i actually for once talked to them...or well, just my dad. He said that he thinks that him and me and probley my mom should invite Beryl over and they want to actually see how she is, he said until that he says emailing back and fourth with her is fine. Luckily he doesn' believe any of the rumors...though my mom does...He told her about it, and she's kinda worried, she asked me if i saved a copy of the email i sent her, but i lied and told her i didn't, since i really didn't want her reading it. Basically in the email i told her i miss her alot(b/c i do) and that i never once thought that she killed Frank. I also did alot of ranting, told her that Zoe really misses her too, and that my parents won't let me go over to her house without them, and i also added that perhasp when they see you again they'll be ok with everything again? which i'm not sure, i just hope so, i havn't seen her, i'm kidna scared, jsut b/c i'm not sure if she's herself again or not? Though i REALLY want to see her!!! I've been checking my email like every hour...though no reply yet then again, life is probley pretty hectic for her.

Today i was talking on my cell phone with Zoe, and i have this weirdo thingy about never ewanting to talk if someone else is in the room, so i went outside, and then i kidna kidna went into one of the horse pastures, and then through another fence, following a trail...still talkign on the phone, just kidna zombie walking, and like you can't really see Beryl's house from my house b/c it's around the corner, like 3 miles away, anyways i was then into our woods(barefoot) and i continued to follow the trail...until i could see Beryl's house, and i just kidna sat down by a pine tree talkign on the phone and staring at her house...i didn't see any movment, plus i didn't see any cars there. But yes, then again Her house was still a meadow and a cornfiel, plus the road and her long driveway, away. But once i hung up the phone i was just kidna stunned i had walked all that way...then my fear was 1. had anyone seen me(which i came to the conclusion no, sicne i was sitting, plus int he woods, in a grey hoodie, sitting, shaded by the trees), 2. that i now had to walk all the way back without the company of Zoe...and 3. Why had i walked all the way here in the first place?

Just one of the many mental parts of the day....anyways, thanks for helping you guys, i shall keep it all updated, i can't wait for her email...i can't concentrate on practically anything else!

[|g.O.l.d.Y|]

Wow, I do that sometimes too. Did it twice only on pavement with socks on. I got in trouble both times...well one time not so much because I was almost scared to death. (2 pitbulls were chasing me down the street *shudder* I didnt know I could run so fast and Bria was laughing when I got inside -.- she was the one on the phone and had heard me squealing the whole time) I think habit just kicks in. You're use to walking to Beryl's house and since you were busy talking on the phone with Zoe your feet just kicked into the routine. or it could have been you were wanting to see Beryl so much you did it without thinking.

~:Goldy:~

[Marly]

yeah, i don't usually go cross country though, but i think i learned a new route to her house...one where the neighbors or my parents can't see me go! Wahoo! The dumb neighbors are spreading lies about her, and if i ever want to go to Beryl's house, i have to go past thier house...which i never go that way unless i'm headed to beryl;s, but now i can just got hrough the woods and through cornfield...anyways yeah, i'm really happy that she's back, i still havn't gotten a chance to meet her yet though....We drove past her house today though, making my insides burn since my parents said i couldn't go online until my school was done...so i basically flunked a few quizes to get on here xD and she FINALLY replied, lol, i can't blame her for having better things to do. anyways, here's what it says:

Hi!

It means so much that we are still friends!!! and yes hopefully your parents and the others around here will begin to realize how stupid the idea is. By the way I'm not the only one who think E and F and especially E are doing this, spreading lies etc around about me so that they could get MY LAND and MY HOUSE away from me. He is such a jerk. But I'm being strong because of people and friends like you who still believe in me and know I could never hurt anybody or anything, not even a little mousie in the garden. So let Zoe know I say hey and also Heidi and thanks for your prayers and dreams, they mean everything to me and help me so much. Good always wins out over bad! Gosh, it's good to talk to you again!

Beryl


so yeah, i'm replieing now...oh btw whens he says E and F she means Fran and Ed, the neighbors, Fran was Frank's sister, and they never liked Beryl, and they're the ones who have been tellign my , thanks againn you gmom stuff about Beryl, basically they don't want her living around them or thier grandchildren. But fran is still really nice...anywaysuys, glad to talk to somebody ^^

[Marly]

Ok, well...the neighbor called my mom again this morninf...which i hate her(the neighbor, Jaimee) to Beryl's face she acts all nice, but she turns around and strats gossiping about her to everyone behind Beryl's back! Anyways, After my mom went to work, my brother went over to a friends house, and my dad was zoned into his trailer he as working on, so i just told him i was gonna go take a walk through the woods....which of course once i got out of sight i ducked onto the trail i walked the other day on the phone. I crawled under te fence into the corn field, i could see Beryl out in her garden, and i just walked over tthrough the 2 acer(sp) field, and crawled under the fence again onto the road, walked down a ways, Beryl saw me then, she looked really happy, and met me half way, i picked up my pace, and ran towards her. I was so happy as i hugged her, I had missed her soo much! She had missed me too, we talked for about half an hour, she's definatly not crazy, but Ed never liked Beryl, so continues to lie about her, Beryl plans on moving....which really saddens me, espeacially sicne i know she's fine now. She thought it was sweet how i was willing to sneek over to go see her, i really want my parents to see her too, so they can agree with me.I know it was pretty dumb of me to go over there alone, but i knew she wasn't crazy or anything, i'm now more certain then ever. I knew my dad would be wondering what was taking me so long, os i couldn't stay long, well, my dad looked at me a little funny when i walked back, i wodnered if he could see me through the trees...since we can see part of beryl's yard if we look hard, but he didn't say anything... I rarly listen to my folks...probley pretty sad....but then again, what's even sadder is that their trying to protect me from this perfectly fine person, and are so concerned, but yet can't even tell when i'm depressed...oh well. I really enjoyed seeing Beryl, Both of my parents are going to be at work Mon. night, i think i'm going to go back over there then.... alot of people are probley going to think i'm a dumb idiot...but i don't know if i care, if you guys knew Beryl and knew how well she had helped me get through a lot of stuff in the past, you guys could probley understand, well, you might understand now...i don't really know....I really want to spend time with her before she moves, i mean, i hate that she's moving, but i can't blame her, everybody talks behind hr back, and why would she want to live in a house that her husband comitted suicide in? but it still sucks...anyways, yeah i gotta go

[|g.O.l.d.Y|]

Well I've been proved wrong. I support you now in sneaking behind ur parent's backs. If I found out by meeting ehr she's not crazy I would keep meeting her.

I'm sorry that she's moving, I really am. It'll be hard, but it's probably best for her. I hope she moves close to family so she won't be alone, but sometimes it is best to start anew where people don't know ur past.

Beryl knows best, remember that.

~:Goldy:~

[Marly]

yeah she probley does, sorry that i bascially just wnet against what everyone always says...i'm like that...kinda stubborn on moronic xD But i'm glad i went and saw her, she means sooooo much to me!!! But i'm such an idiot, once my mom came her, she asked what we should do tomarrow(today) i said, "We could go see Beryl....." She kidna glanced at me, "I don't think so" she said sternly, i of course had to push it though, "You havn't even given her a chance! Your just believeing everything Jaimee has told you, which probley isn't even true! Jaimee is being a horrible person, Beryl thinks Jaimee is on her side, when she's not! She's just pretending to be Beryl's friend until Beryl turns around, then she tells everybody anythign she suspects, or just plain lies...." i knew i had already blown off chances....my mother turned around, "And your not going to tell Beryl about Jaimee either" she said, walking over tot he door, I made the mistake of being silent, and then my mom really got mad, "You already told her didn't you, God {insert name here}{middle name, well, ok, well, middle name won't hurt, Jane}!" She then stormed off slaming the door behind her. Even though it wsas 11:30 i knew she was going to call Jaimee....it's wonderful how my mom would rather tip off the neighbor then her daughter's like best friend second mother type person thingy....I like cried all night...i'm soo pissed at my mom!!! I hate her...then this morning she's acting all lovey dovey, "Sicne it's just the two of us we should have a girls day out!", i just kidna shrugged, i was smart enough to leave the Beryl subject out of it....i don't think my mom will let me see Beryl before she moves....I still plan on going over on Mon. but i think i'm going to ave to tell my bro, b/c he's gonna be home, and he's really nosey. What really sucks is my grandparents want me to go down to NM to live with them in the summer, i also do in the summer, and my mom told them that Me and Jarrit(my brother...we both have weird names....my aunt never even spells my bro's name right...) should both go in May....i know my mom just wants to get me away from Beryl though....i don't want to go this early in the year though! Sure, my friends will still be in school, so i won't miss a month of their summer vacation like a usually do, but i would definatly miss my last month with Beryl..which i'm sure i won't have muhc time anyways, but still, the more time with Beryl the better! I really want to move out at 16, but my parents said they won't sign the consent form they don't want me to leave, they told me though that if i wanted they'd make the basement an apartment like thingy and i could pay them rent, i'm like 'hell no!' i'm kidna an independant person...and i want to get away from mygetting away from my parents for a month in NM, but i really don't want to leave Beryl, espeacially when i know she's leaving...sorry, this ha parents, my dad's not so bad, but my mom is terrible....i can't stand her. I usually LOVE s been on my mind all day and night....I don't know what's going to happen with the whole Jaimee thing, i'm not listening to another one of her freakin lectures about how dangerous Beryl is *rolls eyes* how she's possed my the demons....and how she might be a killer....like w/e! She's 51!!!What would be her motive??? She didn't gain much of a profeit from his death? She doesn't know how she's going to buy a new house...As soon as i'm older(if i can make it that far), i'm gonna move close to her.

[Marly]

dude...funny how all of these posts go so fast for me to type...i don't realize how long they get??? until i post them, thne i'm like, 'omg, i typed that in like 3 minutes!?!' lol

[Marly]

ok....this REALLLY sucks! Just like an hour ago, the gal i babysit for called, asking if i was busy tomarrow, since she couldn't find ANYONE else to babysit the girls *guilt guilt* and my mom was standing right there, and i couldn't think of a reason to say no..even though i really didn't want to, i really wanted to see Beryl, since that was like the only time i'd be able to go see her before me or her go...but i had to say yes b/c i had no reason not to...i should have said i wasn't feeling good...but too late now....then i was thinking 'well, maybe she won't need me until night?' no such luck fro me...it's from 11:30 in the morning to to 10:30 p.m.!!!! It sucks! I REAALLY REALLY don't want to babysit...at all!!! This could be like the only chance i could have had, unless my dad gets to go to work pretty soon...i basically blew it! Why did she have to call!!!