Much has been lost....

[Marly]

You've probley(ok...well, i won't say you all have...maybe a few atleast???) have noticed i've been gone....or atleast not here. Well, i have this neighbor, Her name is Beryl, she is, or was, reallly kewl! Ok, i'm like 14, and often get into rows with my parents and such, well, Beryl understands and i always go over to her house and rant about them, and she's always helped me with...problems(few certain things that if your really curious i'll say over PM, but i don't think i should mention it here)...She's really religious, and has alot of animals, is very lovign and such, and we're good friends(she's like 58?) Anyways, I'm of course really close with her husband, Frank, too. Their a really nice couple and i always bring my friends over to thier house whenever they come over and such, we hang out, and when we're bored i'm always like "Lets go see what's happening with Frank & Beryl".

Anyways, Beryl's always been really kewl, and she's really smart...but she's been a little....strange? lately, well, Frank finally talked her into getting checked ouit, and she was diagnosed with being Bi-poler(Like your really happy, having a great day, then the next day your SO depressed, can't get outta bed..life sucks, something small happens your uber happy again) The Doctors said that they think she might be a little skitzofrenic(sp?). Well, then she stopped sleeping.....for a whole month? She's still really kewl, just a little different? Full of energy, getting visions(which is kinda of freaky b/c their real....), and not sleeping? Well, she wanted Frank to be up all night with her. I guess Frank just couldn' handle it anymore...He comitted suicide about two days ago....Beryl was home, and now she's gone completely bazurk...And they put her in a mental hospital....
I was really shocked too, i've been crying my eyes out, Frank was probley the best man i've ever met, he was really generous and nice, always there to help, espeacially me, i'm kinda scared of men(long miserable story....another PM me) I've been reallllly depressed and sad, and i havn't been on here, i just feel too lazy right now...though i hope i'll be back shortly, i think? Sorry....I really miss him, and i not only lost Frank, but Beryl too, she's definatly not Beryl anymore....anyways, his funeral is on Tue. so i might be on and off here....who knows, sorry i know it sucks, i just don't feel like rpg right now, i've just been drowning myself in my music. I promise i'll come on later to check out posts, it might uplift my spirits? Anyways,

farewell for now my dearests

-Marly

[|g.O.l.d.Y|]

I feel for you, Marly. I was near tears when I read this. It sounds horrid. They both seem like they were nice people, but life must go on. I'm not saying to forget them. Never forget loved ones, but don't dwell in the past too often.

I'm here for you if you ever want to talk. I have a hard time trusting adult men too so to lose one that you trust entirely must be harder than words can describe. I only tust one adult man and that's my father. But, this is about you. Keep on, take as much time as you need to recover.

*huggles*

~:Goldy:~

[Marly]

thanks Goldy, your words are comforting, i'm doing better, my grades were going up, but now i can't focus again...r.eally sucks

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Awww I'm sorry Marly. *huggles*

[Marly]

*huggles Goldy and Dessie*

[*Simply Seasle*]

sorry.........i feel so bad.............

[Marly]

The funeral was this morning, me and my best friend went togather, which was really nice of her, she liked Frank alot too, and it's still quite a shock, but perhaps he's happier now?

[|g.O.l.d.Y|]

I'm sure he is, Marly. It must have been hard to see him go forever, but this was what he wanted remember that.

Your friend is a true one for coming with you. I hope she can help you through this hard time.

~:Goldy:~

[Marly]

she has greatly, i'm in many thanks to her, i've asked her a few times to join this board, but she's only got half an hour a day, and she claims she's way to busy, that's alright though, currently, it's sad to say, but she is basically my only friend right now.

I don't think Frank actually wanted to die, i think he just couldn't handle Beryl the state she was in, but he wasn't the kind of guy to push people top do things they didn't want, you, Goldy, can probley imagine why i could feel comfort in that. They didn't let Beryl out of the hospital to come to his funeral, so i don't think she's coming back...which means i'll probley be getting her 6 rabbits(actually, i don't know how many rabbits they had, she had 9 at the time, but decided they wanted to be free...yeah...she was starting to go a bit looney then, so she let them go, but then re-caught some of them...) They already got rid of the chickens and cats...even though i REALLY wanted Cylus, Lydia and Jeep, Elizabeth was an awesome cat too. Then the two dogs Toby(started out ours as a pup, funny world really...b4 we moved where we are now) is an 12 yr. old cocker spanial, with spinal injuries and synus problems, so he will most likely be put down, poor pooch, and then thiers Tomy, who is a chocolate lab mix, who somebody shoved out the door of a moving pick up....he's a bit skiddish, but never bites or growls, really friendly when you warm up to him, but is quite afraid of vehicals, thier/we're lookign for a home for him. but yeah...to bad none of you guys live near me(well...cept Kash, but that's still a long way away) and are in need of a dog.

anyways, yeah...i'm Ms. brightside today xD