Deep trouble...

[./*/_feather_\*\.]

Well, those of you who know me, should know that i always get tangled when it comes to the guys i like. Christian Barrett moved to Hawaii....for the year, so he and his family can spend time with his mom's side of the family. So he has been gone for about 2 months. [Weve been keeping in touch on e-mail. Today i sent him the lyrics to Untouched..haha...he said "So...are you saying you want me to touch u when i come back??? :/" and i said "Maybe a hug but nothing more! I just thought the song was nice to send you. XD" lol]

Well ive been really depressed, and do you remember Greg? Christian's racist/mean, best friend? Yeah well we decided to be friends this year [forgive and forget] and he's been helping me out with Christian being gone. Ive begun to like him...and i mean like him, and im pretty sure he likes me back [cause he snuck into my backyard to say hi]. Well, Christian is coming back to Las Vegas in 9th grade...which will be soon. I havent told him about mine and Greg's new relationship.

I will always choose Christian over Greg but i think i should give Greg a chance. Im just not sure how Christian will take it. I know everyone will tell him if Greg and i dated. Christian is really easy going but also very sensitive...what am i suppose to do? I do love Christian, other wise i wouldnt keep in contact with him so much. But Greg...is so much like me. Independent, stubborn, clever, talkitive, and really cool. But Christian is shy, sweet, artistic, sensitive, and just a great guy! Help me....

[//Cindy// l u n a]

What you should do is not rush into anything. Wait. Hold back. If you can't be loyal to one boy don't be disloyal to any.

[Swifttail]

Yeah, Cindys right.

[./*/_feather_\*\.]

Christian will be gone for awhile, and Greg is right here. I really do like Greg and i dont want to sit here mopping about Christian when i have so many options [most i will not consider though].

[//Cindy// l u n a]

But how would Greg feel if, after you develop a relationship with him, Christian comes back and you dump him for his friend? You should take relationships more seriously... don't just think about options think about real emotional ties. It sounds like you and Christian have a good relationship - don't cheat on him just because he's somewhere else. Instead of mopping, just be happy and email and chat with him. There's a reason they invented the telephone.

[Swifttail]

Yeah... maybe neither of them are right for you? (Please dont kill me for that!)

[./*/_feather_\*\.]

No, Christian and i are over right now accually. We stopped dating 2 weeks before he left. Christian knows about how Greg feels about me , and Christian says that it is up to me. I know that Christian also has feelings for [possibly dating] a girl named Kolani in Hawaii right now. I think its all evened out. Christian is "cheating" on me already but i dont consider it "cheating" since were not dating. If you want to ask him, please do [on e-mail]. I am really confused. Greg asked me out right before the Super Bowl started and i havent given him an answer.

[Swifttail]

Do it! Say yes!

[./*/_feather_\*\.]

I-i....I DONT KNOW! all i txt back was "lemme tink bout it kay? i love you."

[Swifttail]

I dont know if he'll be so thrilled about that...

[./*/_feather_\*\.]

He really didnt mind. Well i told him-
"not at the moment. im sorry. u kno i love you alot but im really confused about everything."
"oh. thats fine. i kno u love me, and i love you too"
"r u sure? ur not mad at me?"
"no i understand. i just want you happy."
"mkay i get it. thanks."
"welcome"
ANdddd....now that Greg is out of the picture...Antonio managed to squeeze back in. I like him again. Do remember how recked up i was about how he broke up with me? Well he realized that i was the girl he wanted, not that skanky 7th grader named Fenixx. I like him again too be i do want my feelings to get hurt again. i miss him, but i dont want him at the same time.

[Swifttail]

Dude, your guy crazy. No offense, you need to get a life.

[Midnightstorm]

What dose your heart say go with that

[./*/_feather_\*\.]

I know im totally guy crazy.

antonio offered to be my valentines...and greg is totally fine with it and i asked christian and he said "in the meantime, i dont mind that you date other guys. your not on a tight leash, sonya. its not like i own you. you do whatever makes you happy, cause that is all i want from you."

[Midnightstorm]

aww. Oh that reminds me your like my friend Nina totally boy crazy